Thursday, August 30, 2018

A new level of trust

As most of you know, I recently got married and we are LOVING the married life. We had nothing short of an amazing honeymoon in Costa Rica and are now living in Austin. Dainon started school this week and I'd be lying if I said I enjoy hanging out at the apartment with nothing to do. For those of you who don't know, I'm a planner. I've been planning for this move for months now. I've been applying for jobs since April and doing interviews (all seeming to go really well) hoping to have a job laid out for me once I got here. It's now almost September, I've been here for 2 weeks and still don't have a job. For me this process is SO stressful and frustrating. I am very confident in myself in what I do. I KNOW I am good at what I do, not because I'm cocky, but because I'm so passionate about it. I love every aspect of esthetics (as well as personal training) and just making others feel better about themselves. The industry here is a little crazy to me. When they hire, they want someone IMMEDIATELY to start. Until I moved here, that was impossible, but now that I'm here I can't seem to find anyone who is hiring. Also, I am the only one making money for us for a little while since he is still in school and how am I supposed to do that with no job?

This truly takes me to another level of trust with God. I have to CONSTANTLY remind myself that HE is in control and that He will take care of me like he's done so many times before. Stressing and worrying NEVER helps, it only causes confusion and more frustration. Trusting in the situation is hard because I want to control this and I can't. There's absolutely nothing I can do, but trust in Him. I can send and hand out resumes, do interviews, send follow ups, but past that the DECISION is out of my hands. It is so important to trust The Lord in this situation or I would 100% go crazy.
I know He keeps His promises, I know he has the perfect job hand picked just for me, and it will come at the right time.
I guess it's fitting that my last two devotionals were about Him keeping promises, and not worrying so I guess He was reminding me again...

Proverbs 3:5-6   Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Matthew 6:25-27  “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?”

1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Philippians 4:6-7  do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I am holding on to these verses tightly and trusting Him with the moments I have. He has a perfect plan and all I can do is TRUST it.

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